Balance

Balance. Our sanity depends on it. Some people thrive on being busy all the time, I'm not one of them. Lately I have been struggling with balancing everything; it's such a huge internal struggle for me. I need to find a way to find a balance with all that I want to do and what needs to be done. Yesterday I needed a day at home. Thankfully I got it. I stayed home all day and never once left the house. I can't remember the last time I did that. I'm afraid that I may have made some people upset by my day home, but I truly needed it. It gave me time to reflect and to get a few things done around the house that I have been putting off.

Before when I was working full time I felt like everything was balanced very carefully. I worked every day and then Friday's were my evening alone and Jason and I managed to get everything done that we wanted. It was a perfect balance.

This last fall I started going scrapbooking just about every Friday and that felt like a good balance too. I got my socializing in, plus got some scrapbooking done.

Lately though I feel that I need to make some changes. Need to find a better balance. I feel that I'm all over the place. I miss being at home. I used to be such a homebody and I haven't been lately. I need that back in my life.

I thought about this a lot yesterday, in fact I had this blog entry written in my head yesterday. (But would you think I remembered any of it today. Nope, of course not.) I'm going to try to make a few changes and see how I feel then. Simple changes such as running errands one day a week and not multiple, clean the house on my days off. Not go scrapbooking every Friday. Go for about 2 a month. I need some changes and I'm going to see how these make me feel. I hope to find that happy balance again instead of being pulled in a zillion different directions.

Hi!

Did you know that one little "Hi" and a smile can change your day? It did mine.

Today was just one of those days where I wanted to stay in bed and shut the world out. But I couldn't, I had to get up and go to work. I was hoping to stop for a Starbucks Coffee before work, but was too slow moving I didn't have time. Since my desk was slow, I decided to use my morning break to head on over and pick one up.

I walked outside, enjoying the cool, brisk wind, and simply being outside. When I head to Starbucks, I always cut through the Gonda building. On my way to Starbucks, I was doing just that and a little boy about 4-5 was walking about 10-15 feet in front of his mom. He had a nasal cannula on, for oxygen, but looked like the happiest boy in the world. He looked up at me, smiled really wide and said, "Hi!". I smiled back and said "Hi!" too.

That one little smile and "HI!" made my day.