Secrets

This was Amy's challenge from SC. I really debated about posting these, and may end up taking them down again. But with everyone else sharing theirs, I thought I would post some of mine. There are some that I will never share here. But all of you that have bosted I admire you. You gave me the courage to post some of mine.

• I attempted suicide my senior year in highschool. I think the only reason why I got out of the mental health clinic was because I knew what they wanted to hear. I wasn't honest with the psychologist I seen after that either.
• It tore me up when I was admitted to the ER after taking dad's pills, and they accusing me of taking illegal drugs. I have *never* took drugs in my life. I wonder if mom and dad believed me that I never took drugs.
• I fantasize about other people.
• I'm very good at pretending I'm happy and all is well when it's not.
• I wonder if I have any half brothers and sisters. Then I remember what my bio-dad did to mom and want nothing to do with him.
• I have more friends online than in real life and I'm ok with that.
• I'm embarrassed about the house I live in.
• Sometimes I wonder why in the world Jason married me. He could have done so much better than me.
• I hate crowds and family gatherings. It's fine if there are very few people there, but I feel out of place and uncomfortable at other events.
• I still can't remember the names of some of Jason's relatives.