Balance

Balance. Our sanity depends on it. Some people thrive on being busy all the time, I'm not one of them. Lately I have been struggling with balancing everything; it's such a huge internal struggle for me. I need to find a way to find a balance with all that I want to do and what needs to be done. Yesterday I needed a day at home. Thankfully I got it. I stayed home all day and never once left the house. I can't remember the last time I did that. I'm afraid that I may have made some people upset by my day home, but I truly needed it. It gave me time to reflect and to get a few things done around the house that I have been putting off.

Before when I was working full time I felt like everything was balanced very carefully. I worked every day and then Friday's were my evening alone and Jason and I managed to get everything done that we wanted. It was a perfect balance.

This last fall I started going scrapbooking just about every Friday and that felt like a good balance too. I got my socializing in, plus got some scrapbooking done.

Lately though I feel that I need to make some changes. Need to find a better balance. I feel that I'm all over the place. I miss being at home. I used to be such a homebody and I haven't been lately. I need that back in my life.

I thought about this a lot yesterday, in fact I had this blog entry written in my head yesterday. (But would you think I remembered any of it today. Nope, of course not.) I'm going to try to make a few changes and see how I feel then. Simple changes such as running errands one day a week and not multiple, clean the house on my days off. Not go scrapbooking every Friday. Go for about 2 a month. I need some changes and I'm going to see how these make me feel. I hope to find that happy balance again instead of being pulled in a zillion different directions.